Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Poison and Wine

is the title of the song I'm listening to. By The Civil Wars. It's haunting, and I really like it. You should look it up if you want.
I haven't blogged in months and months, and I think I will start again. This is just a crazy time in life right now. So much is happening, and I am just trying not to think too much about it. When I think about all my friends moving away from me, I get kind of sad, so I just push the thoughts aside.
I am really really excited about finding a full time teaching job and settling down somewhere. It's exciting to think that I could end up anywhere. It's really exciting. I mean, we are all really growing up, or trying to. It's crazy how many people I know who are getting married or having babies. When did this start to happen? Anyway, I am not planning on marriage or children at the moment, but I am going to start my career, and I plan on giving teaching everything I've got. I have so many ideas floating around in my head right now. Like, I can make them read this book, and we can do this project, and I can decorate this certain way. I want to make kids who don't like English like my class. Hey, I get it. Not many people like English. But if you have to learn about commas and Nathaniel Hawthorne, it should at least be a little bit fun. I am to the point where I want my own class so badly that it consumes most of my thoughts. I don't want to just have it just to have a job. I want it because I love teaching more than anything. I didn't mean for this to get into a whole sappy rant about teaching, so I'll stop. I just can't believe that real world is here. I graduated in December, but now that everyone else is done, it's really hitting me. College passed by so quickly.